random thoughts

WISHING ALL MY FRIENDS:

A HAPPY AND PEACEFUL EID MUBARAK

- FROM NUR & FAMILY

1. sucking choclairs during meeting. it gets me high..sugar high..so that i donthave to fall asleep listening to the drones of boring stuff they usually talk about in meetings

2. searching and picking itchy hair..rambut gatal..ya know that short, thick curly hair that gives you that geram feeling when you feel it?.....nevermind :p

3. watching tv/cds with daniel & papa, and cuddling with both..sigh...now i only get to cuddle with daniel on weekend..

4. double beef Uncle Burger with lotsa veges..

5. getting my back scratch before calling it a day...its like...ahhhhhh so bestnya.....

you are tagged!

"Welcome to Putarjaya, the pseudo city where everything is less than what you see"
"welcome to Putrajaya, the land of the spigot and the ugly cracks and bumps"

destiny rang the doorbell

wow..the last posting was exactly a month ago. much has happened since then:
1. Daniel is now staying with my mom, and go to school there. he is happier from my observation, though i know he misses me.
2. i no longer have my D70. have to sell it - personal reason. i was so sad.. photography brough so much happiness in my life, but sometimes sacrifice is in order especially when it related to family..
3. i have housemate now. lega sikit
4. i have few side jobs that will help me a bit. i am thankful..Alhamdulillah

life is dull without my son with me..

it aint easy..

Let the healing comes swift for

I have been buried under such

Ferocious sadness

These unspoken beasts ensnared

My weaken heart as it

Searched for the light at

The end of this long, winding tunnel

For heart is what nature bestowed

To be filled with the wisdom

Our mind acquired

Honed to reach and touch

To teach the untutored limbs

The way with humane

Heart, the embodiment of

The naked essence we called soul

Do not held me in contempt for

I have erred in so many

Ways that I have, myself,

Lost count all of them

Breathe into me words

Of hope that hid so

Well in your eyes

Curse the darkness for

Stealing the light

Of which held the promise of

Love and freedom from

These painful grips of

Perpetuated abandonment in the

Capricious spirit flies unbound; unchecked

Squealing in freedom that soon

Proved to be perilous

Pray the end come hastily

For my heart tethered

Like broken flesh hanging from the wound

For I am broken

And I have sinned

B. Maria, 2005

that is the only word that come across my mind.
they come, they see, they kick yer ass and they proclaim We are the ruler

now tell why i shouldnt hate such barbaric act?

long weekend with no plan makes my mood foul. i found myself to nod off most of the time (plus the fact it has been raining since morning doesnt help)

April
passed by quietly
and i am left lingering
at the edge of memory
a bad habit
i have yet to let go

Abah & Grey
1st of April
of celebration and heartache
such a reminder
that life is
a coin with
2 different face